Writing To Order
Output from a writing exercise reads better than the novel I am currently working on. I think it is because I get
caught up in the story. Most people assume though, that it is because I am bilingual. Proficiency in any language comes
from using the language like the way native speakers do traditionally. If native speaking is all it takes,
I should be an expert in Tamil. My family speaks Tamil.
I have relatives who are certified pundits in that language. I myself am barely Tamil literate.
Funny Story. I learnt Tamil, the little I know, from a person who herself wasn't a native speaker of Tamil.
Her mother tongue was Telugu. One afternoon she learned that I have no idea, no way to tell one south Indian script
from another. I simply had no knowledge. She sat down and gave me a lesson in the alphabet.
Two weeks and I could read the basics. A, B, C, and A is for apple, B is for Ball... (In Tamil the letters
begin with 'K'. ) the very basics.
Since, if I have to, I recollect the letters, and literally string them together to read a single word, slowly.
I do speak it quite well. As for my friend, she could speak, read, and write, Tamil, Telugu, and English.
(Writing novels, not so sure.)
Once you're set, and that begins at a young age for most people, all it takes is the determination to succeed.
Grammar is not a skill you pick up by observing. It is knowledge. Like any other subject, mastery depends entirely on practice.
Practice makes perfect. Practice (the verb) is essential. The degree of usage as qualified with any term,
is usually assumed to be synonymous with the term "native speaker".
Some of it is about the love for the language. A lover can dump you, and take off. Language is here to stay.
Most writers, even those who have only communicated in English, work on it. They build lexicons and
practice constructing sentences.
Eloquence on the job often relies on such a backbone of learning. That way the naysayers,
the competition that tries to get to you in various ways, that unexplained demon called writer's block, and more such hurdles
seem smaller than they are.
I have knowledge of people looking to pin writers down with a 'style', which is still okay, but profiling how they string their clauses together, oh my. From there on it keeps getting worse. “What software were you using?”, “What email account were you using?”, “Who were you sitting next to when you wrote that?”, “Were you inside a Starbucks?” “Outside a Starbucks?”, “On the Subway?”, “Eating a Subway sandwich?” “Did it have meat in it?”, “What color was your hair?”, “Is that your original color?”, “What was your skin tone?”, “Were you tanned when you aren’t normally?”, “I checked and you did not get a tan from a pool like you said. What is your game?” [Are these petty individuals winning? Where do they meet to discuss petty? Where is this thinktank even operating from?!]
The worst kind of profiling by far is the guy who goes, "Big words or no?" What the fuck is that? A cap on knowledge acquisition?
You know who does that anywhere in the world? We all know who! What gives this person the right?
Experiences, let us discuss that. "This experience is only mine," claimed one man who did not construct a single sentence in my
233-page manuscript. [Details withheld on purpose. He won, and that means I am the one making trouble now.] His yelps are
echoed by an unseen pantheon, backing him from an unknown realm. Zoom, in the blink of an eye it is a movie on Amazon Prime.
Infuriating?
What sustains people like me? I ask myself, so I can move on. I see that some have it worse. They are stabbed in the back by
their own husbands/lovers/teachers/bosses... I have seen that in most cases, they wear the cloak of savior or helper or good in
some way which is usually a very twisted kind of logic that excuses more such bullshit as a legitimate reason to steal.
But back to the exercise that makes such 'saviors', covering up your 'somewhat lukewarm prose' so you can
'let go and write something better', redundant, here's an example.
I often collect a group of words, however dissimilar, and write passages linking those words, often delighting myself if not others.
"You divide a decade in two and you get a lustrum? Notepad doesn't even recognize lustrum as a word. (now it does)
Has nothing to do with lust or rum by the way,
although limerence does. Three lustrums in eerie limerence - not a title for a paperback romance maybe,
but it could be an HBO dirty movie. A lachrymose tale peppered with Sorkinian badinage.
(I made up the word Sorkinian. It's from Sorkin, a proper name.)
The characters move through an uitwaaien like experience, which, while partially diegetic, provides a
fantabulous release for the audience, an alembic catharsis. An experience fleetingly intuitive between the
immersive and the indulgent.
P.S. People like to attach a macaronic sense to prose in any language coming from a bilingual, but that needn't be a rule."
Writing like this is not that hard. But the writer would then be speaking to a different crowd.
Theft, intellectual theft, should not be confused for a master leading you into a better arena.
Crafty pilferers lurk everywhere. Beware.
Back to where I write without caring, beyond a point, about the words I use - it is all over my blogs, etc.
Here is a more fun passage from my recent WIP titled, tentatively, "Blank Book - A story about a story that was in another story."
********* Excerpt Begins ********************
"Nothing was going right. For starters, she had worn her skirt front to back. Like she fucking did not know how
to put on a fucking skirt.
She stood there right outside the school the second she noticed, rooted to her spot. Around her the playground was empty, but just this second. Children, like hundreds of them, noisy, chattering, giggling, kids, flooded the area like the road was the ocean and the elementary school crowd ocean froth.
A lone adult in the mass, a teacher, eyed her skirt then looked away hurriedly when their eyes met.
She could have crumbled into a heap of designer skirt and undies, but she held her ground, defiant. It wasn't easy. She stood there, handbag full of essentials hanging loosely by her waist, eyes fixed on her manicured nails. Seventy-five dollars’ worth of saving grace. Why was today the day she picked to wear a fucking belt?
The belt. A last-minute addition. Florescent and plastic and reeking of all that. A degree up on the Fahrenheit and it could burn. She needed to find a restroom. She would. Once her legs accommodated her request.
Eventually, she got there. Long after the crowd had settled into their homerooms.
The route to the restroom was easy. It was right there on the first floor. But it wasn't meant to be.
Her friends found her. "What took you so long? Come on. The cameraman is here already."
The fucking gym was also right there on the first floor.
"I can't."" She froze, "I am sorry."
"You've done this before. Come on!"
"Your fly is open." She had to. Everybody turned to look at where she pointed.
"Now or never!"" She yanked. The skirt moved a little. The belt gave, snapping right under a loop.
The loop frayed and held. The belt flew out into the air before settling on the floor by her feet.
People turned back towards her, as if following the trajectory of a tennis ball in a match from open fly to broken belt.
The skirt was now worn wrong in every way possible.
A kid happened by just then, and yelled, "Snake!"" pointing at the belt. She reacted like he was right,
kicking it away and screeching, because why not?
The other adults yelled, "No. It is not a snake.!"
The mayhem was a blessing. The skirt was finally in place. Even if the whole event got cancelled now, she could walk home in peace.
But thankfully, the afternoon was a success. They had a blast. Everyone knew what had happened, but no one said a thing.
The skirt wasn't stealing the limelight,
and for the first time she was okay with that.
People were interesting even without serving their usual purpose of boosting her confidence with flowery compliments
about her fashion sense.
At the end of the evening, she grabbed her register and her calculator, packed her handbag, and marched out in triumph.
As far as she was concerned, she had never planned a better event.
********** End of Excerpt *****************
Now back to the writing exercise. If you don't deal with that text sprouting AI thingy the same way,
you will soon see yourself heading into depression. See what that guy does. Then do better.
Good luck!
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